xoxo

was listening through some old songs
came across stone sour-through glass

love it
i mean

"i'm looking at you through the glass
dont know how much time has passed
oh god it feels like forever
but noone ever tells you that foreve feels like home
sitting all alone inside your head"

thinking bout it

how long is forever?
is it till you've found what you've been looking for?
till you've found that present you've always wanted for Christmas?
to finally go on a date with that hot brunette accross campus?
when you buy that CD that you've been craving for?
when you eat them Big Apple doughnuts?
to finally make a mistake and regret it for the rest of your life?
to finally "pop the question"?
to finally pop open that bottle of JD?

i wouldn't know
but i know it's different for every single person
to me i haven't discovered waht forever means.or it's time length
cos' to me it has a time length.seriously

ah i'm bullshitting
or am i not?

all i know is we need some love
I need John Lennon's Peace Group
to know that we are the walrus
and that strawberry fields are forever
then we'll imagine
before we end up in Helter Skelter

feed your dogs

i seriously would like to explain
scold
get angry at
and say
so much on this blog
but it would be really stupid

is it only me that i feel like,i have all this sadness,anger at myself all in this compartment in me?
i would seriously like to throw it out,even if it includes killing me.

is being too nice a sin??

and i don't think i'll be doing well this semester.
i see others JPA scholars or not, busting their asses studying,completing assignments,with finals coming up
and look at me
i'm on9
fucking around,without the fucking
wasting petrol
being a chauffeuring around.

but a lot of what i do, in my eyes is to help
but
does it pay to be nice?
i would say i dont know, but i do know
it does
it pays like a motherfucker(WHOOO)

alamak i just realized everything ive said
has no connection

but hey, youre reading this motherfucker

so that makes u a motherfucker
and your dad(cos' it's true)